Granted the search for perfection is an exercise in futility, but I'm a glutton for punishment. Goddammit I want to do perfect theatre. That's all. I look at production photos, from these small theatres all over the country and I ache to be part of something like that. I wish that I could dedicate all of my time to one thing. I wish I could wake up in the morning and go to the theatre and stay there untill I drop, then wake up and do it again the next day. I'm sure everyone has a motivating desire, but I swear to God mine is all consuming. I need to be there. I need to do better.